Gloomybear♥ (:

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I'm breaking down right now. I don't know whether by keeping quiet and by giving in will make the problem better or worst.
I'm suffering inside. I thank Faz for letting me vomit some of my prob to her.

This is betrayal. It felt like after all the assurance you settled with me from time to time just shattered like a broken glass.

I've sacrifice alot for that chap. Alot.

Way back i was like being bullied emotionally from the one i love.
I would sacrifice my school pocket money just to make you happy. Provide you with the love and things you need. Provide one step closer each and everyday to your dreams.

For me, i'm happy as long as you're happy. But whether i'm happy or not, you doesn't seem to care.

I missed all the time we spent together. I still remember how we met, the first kiss and everything.
I missed the time when we joke and laugh non stop cause that's the only time i felt that you were mine and only mine.

I felt lost when you went oversea to work. I needed and misses you badly.
With all the promises you made. I waited.

Although the promises has yet to be fulfilled, i thought as long as you love me, i'll let it pass. But it has been 4 months since you came back, you've changed. You played me out.

Today i declare that its the end. I'll give you the bigger freedom that you always wanted. Its not that i ever controlled you tho.
I know dear thats its not the first time i'm saying its over. But today it really is cos today i felt that i'm so stupid for all this years trying to make you happy and gave everything that you wanted. But you would not try to ubahkan problem and end up i yang slalu give in walauponn ia pon slh i.

One thing for sure, that girl or the future girl that you will have might be better looking and have a better figure than me, but i bet no girls would sacrifice like how i sacrificed for you.

I am doing all this cause i love you and i want you to be happy. Maybe your happiness bukan dari i. So i akan lepaskan u from now on.

I will halalkan and i ikhlas what i've given you all this years.

I love you forever in my heart but i will have to let you go.

I love you Pakmok. You'll definitely be missed. Take care and make everybody around you proud . I akan sokong u dari blakang k.
Jaga diri. Bye2..

Gloomy says BYEBYE! :D, 6:04:00 PM.

how i wish i could be her. :)) Hpw lucky can i be? I'm not even close. hehe

Well, today is the 2nd last day of the Jay Gee Fashion Bazaar. Shagged.
My legs is like jelly now. I can't walk properly. I feel so week.
Its been a few days of torture. I hate doing cashiering but the other cashier is a fun lot. I thought i hate China and phillipines starff but i'm not. Haha.

I'm off tomorrow but the funny thing is, i have to do pack up and come back to work at 10pm!! Yes you see right its 10 in the night!!

Its ok. I'll suffer now and enjoy later cos i'm freaking going to KL next week!
Mot, you know how much i can't wait to kick your lovely ass there! yeah!

Well, i just saw something that really hurts. No more mood to update. Chao!

Gloomy says BYEBYE! :D, 12:45:00 AM.